Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Well today went to buy some stuff with jie and kind of felt bad though coz she was tired and after abt 20mins later, we finished shopping for my stuff coz couldnt get some of them... during afternoon, i kept doing wai bai then the world told me to try once.. i did and i made it just nice 360.. i was happy at 1st then i realised i rest for so long just to do one without even doing the moves before that...
Today went after training my throat felt worse not really throat more like chest the lungs or something... like wuzong got alot of dust then i sometimes cough got nothing like a dry cough if not feel like choke on something... whats worst is tt i cant breathe to my fullest at times and get breathless easier this few days... i'm afraid becoz now H1N1 thing then i coughing and stuff.. later everyone all don dare come near me coz i coughing..i'll feel super bad la... at times i still try to not cough but then it feels like i'm choking so will also auto cough...
From today on, i must force myself to think that i still have hope for SEA games... even when i don have carding.. coz i never work hard but damn hard to get where i am now... no matter how painful i still tahan... i must admit.. what i feel now is that i'm still depressed over tt day when the snoc ppl came and tt night i cried.. it isnt easy to shut it off fully to see ppl who are confirm going already trg everyday.. happy go lucky not having to worry abt anything or how it will be written.. only time will slowly fade it away... at times i really do wanna hug someone and cry but a part of me just holds back until its no longer bearable..i just hope or shld i say i want to make sure i make it with watever time i have left...
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