Sunday, June 7, 2009
Yesterday, i was suppose to go for training but my bro went for his audition for Singapore Idol, so i ask myself and decided, my brother is more important than a wushu training and attendence. His my brother!! Of coz his more important!! So proud of him coz he made it through the 1st round!! next one will be from 22-26june 2009 either one of the days. However i wont be in S'pore as i will be in tianjin. but i'll get someone to video it down for me.. His going to make it!! No doubts abt it!!
After which, went for worship practice to know tt we are singing a chinese song!! like oh my tian!! after tt i went supper with my supper buds.. hahaha.. yes! driving life is quite fun.. you get to go out late and stuff. and went you get a friend who drives it even more fun then you can take turns to drive.. less taxing on ur eyes.. hahaha.. anyway, we went to eat chicken wings and i drank sugar cane - one of the weird drinks i have taken that kind of have a grass taste. hahaha but u never know unless u tried... oh! we also had chicken wings like bbq kind with squeezed lime! i've never eaten it with lime before to tell u the truth. quite nice. but the next day i feel like my breathing was compromised by half coz alot of phlem and i had stomach upset... but hey maybe it helped me clear my stomach!! tts gd too i guess =p
Today woke up at 8.15am showered and went church. worship as comment by the boss of the church was not like worship. tempo was slow, the songs chosen where not right and the pinching was off. man did he explode. even the whole church heard it. but oh well maybe he woke up from the wrong side of the bed and got abit grumpy. such comments can always be said in private but at times we just forget coz we are still humans and we still make mistakes even when u're a leader. so i forgive him =)
Decided to skip prayer coz i was just so tired from all the nights. i just couldnt slp properly. one night can wake up like 3-4 times.. and i wanted to nap for an hr as i'm afraid i wont be able to slp at night but guess what?? I slpt for 4hrs plus!!! i'm like so doom!!! how to slp later?!?!?! oh gosh!! but i think i'll be abit troubled as well.. coz truth is i did fail my coach course but yet i'm given a chance to teach. now when i see ppl do movements. i know where they are not doing it right but i feel like i'm not gd enough to say anything. but lucky someone did pass the course so she does tell them their mistakes just tt i don really "like" a gal from some ip programme coz she give me a feel tt she very show off.. but then sis just keeps telling her her mistakes instead of helping the other gal.. i would love to tell but then i don think my words have any weight. I don even know whether anyone will listen.. its like so stupid to fail in a written test!!! boy i feel like screaming and shouting..
Its like when u know 1+1=2 but then for ur previous maths test u failed. now one of friends don know the answer and u want to tell it to him but he are afraid tt he will not believe you. but instead, someone who scored well told him the answer. or at least more daringly with more confidence and really has the marks to back the person up.. well, i look up to tt person alot. tts my goal for now. i know its stupid to do so. but i think if i can at least be on par, i'm at least somewhere! but now, i'm still nowhere... I'm a christian and suppose to be full of faith. with so many things bothering me and pushing me ard it just keeps getting harder. now being guided or told what to do at such important times. its just heart breaking. I wish God could visit me and tell me a story. to get inspired or sing me a song. or at least someone to sing me a song or a big hug. yea.. i sound so stupidly hopeless right?? i know.. but i just don know if i can make it for not. I don know...
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