Saturday, July 25, 2009
Din go for the selection trials today.. wasnt feeling good and also i knew i wasnt in form to do my best.. furthermore my coach isnt there to see me do it... so ya lo... also no mood... and alot of ppl also din go for selections and took mc.. hahaha.. so yea..
After watching, had lunch and drove my friend back to her place where we sat down for awhile to look at videos and talk crap.. haha.. then it was time to go home and head of to expo via mrt once i finished changing.. stood all the way to expo...
The hillsong concert/youth conference was considered to be good.. I still remember after the pastor was greet and introducing himself, he suddenly said "Sex is beautiful!" hahaha!! WAH!!! STUNNED man!!! like so random.. hahah.. but yea.. anyway as the service went on for like 30mins or so something came to me...
As i evaluated my life so far, this whole yr since last year august was like hell.. like kena bad luck.. one bad thing happen after another... Tears just well up in my eyes as they run through my head... not only that begin to also think what i have done to get over it and all i did was nothing.. i just waited for time to pass and hopeful try to forget abt it.. but somehow when i become sad again, ppl remind me of it again... i only teared abit in front of my coaches but i held it back..
At times, when someone comes up to you and tells u that they are sad.. do not correct them in a instance... It will actually hurt them even more... but listen to them... no matter what, becoz its a big step to them opening up to you and telling you the truth while others are still in the dark and not only tt. you might hurt them even more becoz they are already in their low or lowest state and if u lecture them they will just feel like they are even stepped by those they hold close to... or thats what i have learnt..
But somehow, today is different. In the service and in worship.. it was just different.. i felt as if God was there and he gave me a hug.. he showed me love and grace... that undeserving grace that allows us to be forgiven no matter what you did wrong.. the undeserving grace that gave you the strength to face everyday..
On the other hand, I really wonder, how close can you really be to someone?? not as bf gf but as best friends or brother brother tt kind or god-bro or god-sis that kinda thing.. Well, for me, i can only say i still have alot more to go... like me and sis, to ppl we are close but there are still somethings that i don know abt her... Well i guess i'm very easy to read so everyone knows me very well.. coz if i treat you as a friend, i'll try to open up to you.. coz someone has to start 1st right?? to think of it... i don know her habits, what she likes in terms of colour, food or even things or like to do... we are still so polite to each other like i'm ur guest u are my guest.. not like make urself at home kinda thing...but still i'm glad tt i still have a chance to know her and get to know her better.. haha..
wah today post very messy.. coz i'm tired and i don really know what i typed above.. cant really remember.. haha!!oh well.. back to grace.. during the conference i really felt a need to think whether m i making the right company or not.. m i suppose to be doing this at this point of time.. oh well its really late n i'm really tired.. shall come another time them..
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