Sunday, July 5, 2009
hahahahaha... tts what i mean with my title... get it??? laugh it off... hahah.. ok crap... well.. no more hope for SEA games so the previous post was nonsense.. please ignore if u wan... talking crap to myself.. well..
Yes!! back to the topic.. i din qualify for even the normination... and like what jie said.. doesnt matter if u have worked hard... but to think again... if u don even workhard, then how ppl even look at you and say maybe u will be inside my list if this other person cant make it in the end... so ya... i did work hard.. receive alot of praises... but i only heard from my supper buddies tt i was great.. the other coach and the zhu ren... i shall take it as they din say anything nice... coz i think its contradicting... So i just wanna think that they are still nice ppl who "TRIED"...
Oh well.. as someone told me... so what if u are sad, no one will pity u... DAMN IT!!! tts even more sad than being sad man!!! hahaha.. ok tts also crap... i mean like ok lo... so be it... i'm sad then i'm sad lo... i cant do super magic and be happy... but i can act happy though... oh well.. lets test my acting skills tml shall we??? i should say... some of them are just blessed well could have been by me =x okok i not so thick skin but yea.. its possible...
Anyway, truth is i am sad.. like it or not.. its in ur face... I am... i don need pity or what rubblish... i don need words... words are cheap... dirt cheap... especially when it comes from someone nonsense... only few ppl words i will take... at times its not becoz i wanna tell u... but i am growing up.. its just tt i thought the ppl who i really open up to understand me... not tt i wan them to be nice to me comfort me... but just be there for me at this time and not give me a damn bloody lecture... i just wanna know whether there is a shoulder when i need it... now... i don even dare to express myself so openly to my closest ones... i thought they knew me, but i now i know maybe not so close.... i will grow up after a cry or 2.. but at least let me have my way of picking myself up.. let me have my way of growing up.. coz i'm not like anyone else.. i'm just me...
I wanna be myself with the ppl i care and love, i don wanna put up an act.. i can do that but whats the point??? i'm tell lies... i don like it... i like to be honest and true... i cant help it... but if i ever tell u anything tt i'm sad abt, its becoz i wan u to be part of my life and not asking for u to pity me.. i WILL pick myself up.. coz i'm a child of God and i'm a winner and winners dont quit... but lastly i wanna congratulate all 8 who got norminated and hope tt all the norminations go through...
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