Sunday, August 23, 2009
Well... today at church i was thinking whether i should or should not go for prayer but then i realised tt i have not gone last week and next week there is no prayer so i decided to go although i was tired... then while praying, the leader told everyone to prayer for me... and as i prayed as well i realised why i couldnt slp well. it was becoz of all those things that i tried to just leave it all behind and try and forget it..
Its hard to get over it and it is somehow taking my slp away. everyone prayed and got be strong and be bold... I guess i have been hiding alot to myself lately coz now there is no one to share with not that they don care but i guess they are too busy.. hahaha.. i understand how they feel... its like i don know...
Maybe you might be reading it or maybe not.. doesnt matter anymore... coz i'm starting to lose touch and hope already... we may have our quiet times and stuff but i guess i've reached my limit of caring.. not tt i'm angry but i just feel like more and more irritated coz that care comes back like a arrow to me.. it hurts when you are just concern or just joking to brighten up the day or lighten the load you just answer back angry expecting ppl to understand...
Maybe i should just keep quiet and shut my mouth and just open my eyes and watch.. well i always say tt way.. but i doubt i'll do it coz my heart just cant bear to do stuff "evil" things.. when u see someone struggling, or is very tired or something of coz u wanna help in anyway u can and its not even abt appreciation already.. its just taking it graciously and not turning a deaf ear..
I know that alot of things is new to u and u are still trying to handle and you still have sports tt needs ur time.. but couldnt you just be a little nicer to me?? I thought you will understand me and tt i would do anything to hurt you but i dont think i know you anymore... Not as much as i would like to think so...
Nonetheless, i still think church friends are understanding although they are busy and stuff but yea their ok just tt sometimes too much God this and God that.. hahaha.. oh well.. no one is perfect... but still jie if u are reading this just hang on and perserve.. i'm sure you'll be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel soon.. "In all the things that you do, do it with a smile. No matter how hard it is be happy becoz you will and is going to overcome it." well that is my quote of maybe the year.. hahaha...
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