Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Oh my tian!!! only 2 days have passed!!! and i'm already like flat!! my muscles are getting hard not the good kind of hard.. but yea... life still goes on... everytime i think of doing taiji i get so frustrated and bored of it... like immediately.... i don understand myself either... never had such a feeling before though...
Oh well... next is i sometimes feel left out.. as in like everyone is in a grp and like i'm alone... not tt my sports is a grp kind of thing.. but i feel so distant.. even to the people who i'm close to or suppose to be very close with... its like a transparent wall all around me.. scary but yes... like ppl shout for me at times but i can hardly hear it.. like slowly i'm beginning to lock myself up somewhere that i don even know..
Even when i do my nandus, there will be a split second of blank... means tt it felt like time stop or as if i stopped and then by the time i realised, i'm already on the floor or going to fall... oh boy... whats wrong with me??
But i still have to keep saying tt i'm good and i'm okie to psycho myself... have been trying to do tt... so we'll see the results awhile later i guess..
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