Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Well.. last week was the 8th wushu display... it was quite okie expect for the part where i was driving home and almost crashed into a lorry or should i say the lorry almost crash into me.. and after that i almost bang the road shoulder the metal thing... yea..
this week is a short week coz monday was a public holiday and on tues and today night there is no training due to a coach upgrading course.. so tt leaves thurs and friday before the trials on saturday... today i felt super nua... like when i jump i cant seem to control myself.. perhaps its becoz too long never train properly or never do much abs or becoz of yesterday's squat jumps.. coz yesterday i only did 4 sets and almost fainted.. i looked everywhere and it was getting brighter and brighter and my whole body start to become numb and i force myself to focus if not i would have really fainted.. and i was really close to vomitting as well after tt.. haiz.. i feel weak man..
During prayer on sunday.. when the youth pastor said to pray for me, i felt tt i was so lost and i couldnt connect and get anything.. there was a feeling but it was as close as i could get.. I couldnt even tell what the feeling was... and some of them got things like getting back into the centre with God.. stand firm and others.. I don know.. maybe i was just blinded by so many things like trying to be somebody for everybody trying to make everyone happy, work work work till i have no idea what i was aiming for anymore.. I suddenly lost myself in the midst of everything!!
Another thing is tt i realise i've been bothering ppl like ty and jie so much.. I have no idea why also.. its like i have no idea what i was doing last week.. it past so quickly but i know i had pull these ppl to do so many things and i never stop to think whether they had other things to do on their own.. all i care abt was myself.. HOW COULD THIS BE??? i'm not going to be selfish!! from now on i must make sure tt i don be selfish...
Anyway.. i gotta go.. just hope this week will be a good week and have a good trial and good time at the party..
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