Friday, November 6, 2009
Lost and insecured,
You found me, you found me.
Lying on the floor,
Surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait,
where were you? where were you?
Just a little late,
But you found me, you found me.
There's some things we don't talk about,
rather do without,
and just hold a smile.
Falling in and out of love,
ashamed and proud of,
together all the while.
You can never say never.
While we don't know when,
time and time again.
Younger now than we were before.
Don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go.
Where did I go wrong,
I lost a friend.
Somewhere along in the bitterness
and would have I stayed up with you all night.
Had I known how to save a life.
I was playing the guitar for 3hrs plus non stop and my fingers they hurt really bad but i just cant stop playing... its like my heart is hurting even more than my fingers so it kind of neutralizes it and makes me feel better.. alot of times you get hurt, not by the ppl you hate or dislike but by the ones you love and care about.. on the other hand, everyone will just say you think too much and you're too sensitive so yea.. I really am but i seem to be able to take on a whole load of physical pain.. i've been saying i'll forget but each time for the past 3 times on 3 different days different ppl have kept reminding me of it.. why??? and at times you really just wanna a shoulder to cry on.. but yet you are afraid to show ur tears.. its actually when you cry tt ppl know u need someone.. isnt tt sad to say??
lets put it in a horrible way, shall we?? Ppl only care for u when they have no chioce.. yea.. it really sums up everything.. i wanna write a song but i can never get myself to write coz i know its not a happy one.. what happened to that true friend?? I'm just too tian zhen to believe of such a person ever existed.. so i've decided to give myself one week to test this out.. i'm gonna be neutral to everyone.. friendly but yet helpful only to a certain extent.. treat everyone equal and no special treatments.. can i do tt?? i don't know.. but i have to try.. and most imptly.. i'm not allowed to be sad... so it will start from NOW!! i will wake up to be a miss happy!! wooo!! okie! its 3.33am weird timing.. but weird timings are probably good for new change =)
Talk to this boy.. his actually a nice boy la.. interested in other things but i guess he only means well =) thanks =)and jia you ba!! you can do it!! alright.. time for bed.. need to be up in 4hrs!! haha!! IVP starts at 9am!! NP wushu JIA YOU!!!
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