Wednesday, November 4, 2009
After a few days of thinking and thinking hard, I find that wanting to be cared for and accepted is no longer in my list.. Coz i've tried time and time again and got disappointed and somewhat feel like i'm used time and time again.. I'm so tired now.. so all this will stop..
Now that i have no more competitions this year, lao shi told me i can do what ever i want and i can choose to not come for training as and when i like.. so which means that i'm not going to be even seen at all if i train.. at the same time, he told me to recap and my strong opponents and what they are good at or better than me and i will work from there..
The thing is i really don know what i should do.. should i go training as usual or go less?? well we'll see how ba..
Another point tt i have really been thinking.. i try to treat everyone so nice and stuff but yet i don get anything in return.. i always wonder why and i see others not really doing much but it looks like they get along so well and help one another.. so as i thought, i find it meaningless.. coz to me, i do good to others becoz i truly wanna help and mean well.. if they don feel the same way then let it be.. i'll just have to think the best of them even in the worst of times..
Lastly, I really thank God for really giving me self contol, love, kindness, patience and forgiveness.. if not for that, i think i would have done and said many many things tt i will end up regretting.. The worst thing is not regretting that you din do something bad to the person when u had the chance to but doing it and ending up regretting what you did.. so yea.. I also thank God for healing on jie.. all sickness will leave her body in Jesus name! Devil you get ur hands off of her! Amen! =)
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